So, about that extra skin… I get asked a lot about extra skin. Do I have it? Where is it? What does it look like?
What I do not love is chronic back pain.
I’ve struggled with chronic back pain since I started having children. My doctor said that it was strain caused by being overweight. But I’ve lost the weight and I’m still dealing with loads of back pain. After a trip to the doctor and a consultation with a specialist I discovered that I have several things going on underneath the surface.
I have a bad abdominal separation that I tried to heal naturally. You can actually feel my organs through the separation. It’s creepy and it makes my core super weak.
I have a ton of internal and external damage from my cesareans. I had four c-sections in five years. That took a tremendous toll on my body and is also a contributor to my back issues.
Most of you know I started exercising five weeks ago. Something I never thought extra skin would affect were my workouts but it does. I have to wear a belly binder or super tight restrictive high waisted pants while I run/do jumping jacks/big movements of any kind or it’s like working out without a bra on. It’s physically painful to run unless I have my belly binded.
I promised I’d always be honest with you guys and share this journey with you, the pretty and the not so pretty. After consulting with several physicians I’ve made the decision to have surgery to repair my body internally and remove the excess belly skin in hopes of getting rid of my back pain.
I absolutely love my body. You know I wasn’t ashamed to rock a two piece at 260 pounds and I’m certainly not embarrassed or ashamed of the way my body looks now. I worked hard for this. This tummy tells my story but after suffering with chronic pain for so long I feel optimistic at the prospect of being able to fix the things that are causing the strain.
I go in for surgery on 4/4/2018 and plan to document my journey here and on Instagram stories if you’d like to follow along!
This was something that I really struggled with sharing because it’s something I’m still struggling with myself but ya’ll have been my greatest support and encouragement throughout this process. I couldn’t imagine doing something this big without telling you about it. More soon. <3